The Kid- Twelve Weeks

So this is the Kid at twelve weeks. This was the first appointment that the Hubby was able to go to, so our midwife did another ultrasound to check everything out and show us the baby. I have to admit, though, that I had a hard time seeing the baby shape at first. The hubs thought I was crazy because I couldn't see it, but I still maintain that the ultrasound pictures look alien to me! (BTW, the white area you see in front of the kid is not a boy part, it's a leg. Many people were confused about that...)

So at this point, I was feeling pretty lousy. I had all day sickness for a good part of my pregnancy. Mostly it would come at night, right as I was trying to sleep. I also had the dreaded N1H1 virus (AKA Swine Flu) around this time. TWICE. I don't know if it just never went away, or if it came back a second time, but I missed almost three weeks of work. I don't do vaccines, so I never got a flu shot for the standard flu or the swine flu, but it wasn't really that bad for me. I mainly wanted to sleep a lot and eat McDonald's french fries. The nausea was really what was killing me. I couldn't keep much down, but we still don't know if it was the flu or the morning sickness. My midwife prescribed some anit-nausea medication and then I felt great (except for the fact that the meds knocked me out). 

Everything else seemed to go swimmingly for these months. I had a lot of paranoia that something bad would happen with the kid, but the more we move through the pregnancy, the easier it is to handle. Now we are both to the point that we are excited more than nervous!

The Kid- Early Days

I realize the ridiculousness of posting a picture when the kid looks like nothing more than a tadpole, but here it is. (I also can't figure out how to rotate the image, yet, so just pick up your monitor and turn it :)  )

The kid was about 8 weeks gestation when this was taken, so s/he was just a wee one. Although we knew at this point that we were pregnant, I was not comfortable sharing the information in case we lost the baby. My midwife was very considerate of that and my gush of tears when she showed me the heart beating on the ultrasound. I was so happy about it, except when I realized that the blood draw would be next. Ha. 

The hubby wasn't with me at this appointment, but I sent him the picture. He said it looked lke a tadpole, and I have to admit that I agree. Funny, funny stuff. 

At this point in the pregnancy I was feeling ill with the morning sickness and starting to catch a cold. I was also incredibly tired and worn out. It was hard to get up the motivation to go to work each day, but you gotta do what you gotta do. 

I think that I will remember the insecurity about the pregnancy at this phase. I was just so nervous that something would happen to the baby. I still have that nervousness, but it is slowly fading away. As we get closer, I just want to meet the little girl/guy... 

Next: Twelve Weeks

Long Time

I have been a long time gone. Sigh. Alas, the world has spun around- yet again- and I find myself in a different place. I never really wanted to quit posting, I just had life get in the way. A few weeks off here, a day off there, added up to not touching this thing until today. Of course, I do have some excuse...

I am preggo! Not new news, but still news. I conceived around July 15. Five days after my great grandmother's funeral and about seven days after a good friend's wedding. Hmmm. Maybe all the excitement of other things distracted me from my thoughts?

I refused to take a pregnancy test, but felt off. I eventually caved and took one. I got a very faint positive so I didn't believe it. I took another one the next week and it showed a stronger (but still faint) positive. I took a third test the next week and it showed an even stronger positive. The hubby said I could either go to the doctor or we were going to Costco to buy the industrial pack of preggo tests. LOL. The pregnancy was confirmed at about week three by my midwife.

Anyway, for the remainder of July and August I was terrified that I was going to lose the pregnancy. Couldn't sleep, sheer panic, terror, and nightmares. Spent all this time being sad because I thought for sure I would end up with another miscarriage.

I finally settled into having more faith when I got hit with terrible morning, noon, and night sickness. This lasted all of September and October. I also got the swine flu in October- twice. Yeah. I don't know how I did that either, but I did. It wasn't that bad, I just couldn't be at work. So I spent 22 days watching Law and Order: SVU. It was great fun.

November was spent still fighting the morning, noon, and night sickness. It has finally calmed down a little in December. So right now I am at 22 weeks. I am due mid-april.

Both the hubby and I know what we are having, but we have been very selective about who we tell otherwise. We have discussed names, but nothing concrete yet. We know what the bedroom will look like, and it will NOT have any pastels ;)

I am also still wheat free. Bloodwork showed that I do not actually have Celiac, but the panel was incomplete so it is not confirmed. I declined the endoscopy and colonoscopy because I could not work up the courage to have them done. I avoid wheat because, through trial and error, I have found that the digestive pyrotechnics are fewer and farther between when I do. So, wheat free and preggo. Now that has been interesting.